Archive for January 2012

Daddy’s Boy   Leave a comment

I have a very sad boy on my hands today! You see, Nathan is a Daddy’s boy!! As in, he wants nothing to do with me, unless my husband isn’t home, and then he will still cry for Daddy before he will let me comfort him! Winter is always hard on Nathan.  Jason doesn’t get out to lobster fish that much in the winter, because the temp is always down and seems like the wind is always blowing!  So there can be weeks between days of work for him.

Nathan has grown quite used to Jason being home during the day.  This morning when he woke up, he looked out the window and asked where Daddy was.  I explained that he had gone on the boat and he cried for about 10 minutes!  After he went to the bathroom he promptly said “daddy gone work, I’m going to bed” and he went back to bed and must have stayed there for about an hour, and he cried just about the whole time.  I tried to go get him, to comfort him, but nothing I did worked. He finally came out of it, and as promised I let him call Daddy on the boat. He always breaks my heart when he has days like this, I just wish I could do something to sooth him, so he wasn’t heartbroken all day.  You see once the weather warms up, and he is working 4 or 5 days a week, Nathan adjusts just fine and doesn’t seem to miss him as much.  Mondays are always a little rough, but we get over them pretty quickly.

I am sure I will be able to cheer him up before the end of the day, I was expecting Daddy to be gone to-day, so I got some new craft stuff saved for today and we have some errands to run…Hopefully this will drag him out of his funk of missing Daddy!



Posted January 30, 2012 by mytwotornados in Nathan

the not so fun medical post   Leave a comment

So lets back up a little to the middle of December. I went to the OBGYN for my yearly appointment.   Everything was going great. I the office I go to, the ladies there are great and they have been thru so much with me, that I wouldn’t dream of going any other place!

At the beginning of my exam, they always do a breast exam.  Now, this isn’t something that is new to me. My grandmother on my mom’s side of my family had breast cancer.  So I have always been good about doing my self breast exams. I had actually just done a self exam about 2 weeks before my appointment. Well she got to my left breast, and she found a lump…I was scared to death. I’m only 31 and the thoughts that went thru my head weren’t the best of thoughts.  The doctor asked me if I had felt this lump on my last self check and I hadn’t, so that means that within 2 weeks it had grown and it was about the size of an egg. I was scared to death! Before I left that office, I was scheduled for a mamo and an ultra sound for later that day, and then 1 week after that I was scheduled with a surgeon who specializes in breast cancer. I also scheduled surgery for myself to have the Essure done, which is like getting your tubes tied, but there is no cutting! Oh and its 100 % accurate in making a person no longer able to have babies! But that will come later!

I went to the mamo and let’s be honest, I was scared to death. I had never heard good things about mamos. I had head that they hurt and were uncomfortable.  Well, I didn’t think that it hurt, actually wasn’t bothered by it at all! And that kind of shocked me.  Maybe i was just in a trance because I was worried I had cancer!  After the mamo i went to the ultra sound department and had the ultra sound done.  When the tech was done, she went and spoke to the radiologists to make sure he had all the info that he would need for the other doctor and he also wanted to speak to me.  He used some pretty big words, words that i wouldn’t remember even 15 minutes later and sent me on my way.  What he did say that I remember was that the chance of it being cancer was about 10%, but I was young and in great health.  He also said that when I saw the other doctor next week, she would most likely want to do a needle biopsy of the lump so that they could rule out cancer.

Can I tell you how long the next week felt like? I didn’t think that the day would ever come to see the doctor.  I was scared to death.  It was a hard emotional week for my family and I.  We didn’t say anything to the kids, but at the drop of a hat I would just start crying.  We didn’t even tell our friends. We just told our immediate family, and by we I mean I told my mom and my husband told everyone else, I was  a wreck, if i started to talk about it, I would just cry! I tried to pass the time by at night while the boys were sleeping by wrapping christmas presents but I think I cried even more than, because every time i wrapped a present or wrote out a label my thought was ‘what if this is my last christmas with my babies’ or ‘what if i don’t get to see them go to school in the fall’ I had so many thoughts running thru my mind that I hardly slept.

So somehow I made it thru the week, the day of the appointment came and the doctor went over family history and we looked at the films from the mamo and then the ultra sound and before the needle biopsy, she said that she would be very surprised if it was cancer.  In all of her years of doing this, she has never seen a lump on a mamo film look like that.  This made me feel a LOT better! and I think it made my husband breathe a little easier too.  This was the Wednesday before Christmas. She did the needle biopsy at 9:30 that morning and told me that she would put a rush on it, and would either get the results back late friday afternoon or first this Tuesday.  I thanked her wished her a happy holiday and went on my way.  Much to my surprise my phone rang that next day around 4:30 or so.  It was the doctor and she said she had my test result back and i asked her if it was good news or bad news and she said it was a little of both and that scared the crap out of me! She said what do you want first, good or bad, and I said well how about the bad. She said I would like to remove the lump in your breast. I said ok, well if that’s the bad news then whats the good news.  She told me that the results came back that the lump was NOT CANCER! I have never been so happy to hear those words.  She said she still wanted to remove the lump because of the size of it, and that it would probably become rather uncomfortable, and she was right, it is rather annoying. So we scheduled that surgery for the end of February, because she is out of the country on vacation from Jan. 1 thru Feb. 15 So I will be her first surgery back once she gets back.

So that’s one thing.  I actually had another surgery yesterday.  I had the Essure done, for anyone who doesn’t know what that is, its like getting your tubes tied but there is no actual cutting involved.  They do it right thru your vagina and it can be done right in your doctor’s office.  But you see, I’m a big chicken when it comes to moving my uterus so I chose to be asleep for it.  I had an IUD placed in Dec. of 2008, and that was still good for 2 more years, but I know beyond a shadow of doubt that we are done having children.  I mean with the twins we went thru so much, I would be worried about going thru all of that again, and besides I got the two sons I always wanted! What more could I want. Oh and I have 2 wonderful (most of the time) step children, so really we have 4 kids, I think we are good with that.

The Essure is like little copper springs that they place in the openings of your fallopian tubes and you body actually grows over them, closing off your tubes completely.  With a regular tubal, you can have it reversed if you want I guess.  I didn’t want that option, my child baring days are officially over 🙂 I never thought that at 31 I would be happy about that.  But I guess 5 years from now if we decide that we want to have another baby we can always adopt.  My in-laws were once told they couldn’t have children so they adopted my oldest sister-in-law and a few years later along came my husband and then a few years later his younger sister.   So adoption is always an option!

I think that one of the funniest things about my surgery yesterday was when I got to the hospital the paperwork I was given in registration said  that the reason for my surgery was “undesired fertility” just kinda made me chuckle a little bit, even though it probably shouldn’t have!!

Posted January 26, 2012 by mytwotornados in Me

What we have been up to   Leave a comment

So I know its been forever, and I really am going to try to be better at blogging this year! My goal is going to be to try to post at least once a week, possibly more! Thanksgiving was great, got to see lots of my husband’s family and also got to see some of my family.  The boys and I packed up and headed to Portland for my mom’s house for thanksgiving and then of course I got to enjoy some black Friday shopping!! This year we are going to do it a little different! The boys and I will stay home for Thanksgiving and then around 3 or so I am going to head to Bangor to meet my mom and a couple of our girlfriends for the night. We will crash for a few hours at a hotel, and then get up and go shopping at midnight! I can’t wait!! then we’ll shop for a while and go back to the hotel and crash until checkout time and then go shopping a little longer before we all make our way back home!! I don’t want to wish away the rest of the year, but I am really looking forward to going shopping on black Friday!

Christmas was GREAT! The boys are finally at an age were they could ask Santa for something instead of just saying toys…They both wanted to same thing so that made life a little easier for us! They wanted guitars and a big buzz light year toy, you know the one that talks and has wings that go up and down, oh and lets not forget about the lazar! what would buzz be without it?!  But other than that, lets just say that they got spoiled! Not just by us, but also by everyone else! I’m glad their birthday isn’t until May, that will give me some time to weed thru the toys they don’t play with any more and make room for new ones!

The boys started speech in December as well. That is going great! They both have a long way to go, but I’m glad we have started. I have already seen little improvements, not many but enough to see we are headed down the right path! They love to go, and I actually just drop them off for speech, which is great because it gives me some one on one time with the other one. Ethan goes for an hour, because he has a longer attention span and Nathan goes for about 30 minutes. I believe that we will try to work him up for 45 minutes soon, I think he is ready but our trouble with Nathan is that he gets so easily distracted!

Oh and for the first time ever, I have actually stuck to one of my new years resolutions! We have been struggling to get Nathan potty trained since Ethan was trained in May. Well we would  try and try and much to our disappointment, he just didn’t get it. He would cry and cry and we would just give up.  So I decided that on Jan. 2, it was time. I put him on the potty and much to my surprise he was ready! He still isn’t going number 2 on the potty yet, but he is getting there.  Well I can’t say he isn’t yet, cause has a few times, but lets just say he has a way to go still.  But I’ll take it. He asks for a pull up when he has to go, and before I give him the pull up I make him sit for a few minutes and if he just can’t do it, then he gets a pull up.  No biggie, we are still saving a ton of money for only needing pull ups for night-time for him and maybe 1 a day!

that about sums it up for now! I have had a few medical things going on, but that is a post for another time!! I don’t need to fill up any more space on this post!!

Posted January 26, 2012 by mytwotornados in Ethan, family, Nathan